2 am and lost in thought

If you were to ask me what my mood was right now, I couldn't answer you. Well, not like you would expect. I feel strangely optimistic with a shadow of sadness shrouding it. This kind of thing happens to me allot. I am naturally a pessimist, but what I mean is I always have conflicting moods. I find happiness in sorrow, maybe happiness is the wrong word, but being depressed gives me a feeling of strange optimism. Wanting something so bad I know I can't have it I almost convince myself it's mine. Don't worry if you don't understand, these are merely thoughts of a mad man.

Last night I went to Epicenter 09. I don't know if you've heard of it, but Linkin Park, TOOL and Alice in Chains were headlining. It was amazing, I'll tell you more of the actual day in another blog post. The reason I bring it up is because I met a girl there I will probably never see again. This is where the feeling of optimism shrouded by sorrow comes in. She probably wasn't interested in me at all, and I think she was with her boyfriend, but I felt a connection, probably one I forged in my head to make myself feel special. During the concert the crowd was so pact that I can barely move, personal space was non-existent. Before the band Tool began playing I turned to look behind me and a few people were smoking, I asked to bum a cigarette. It seemed to me that that group and I became fast friends. This girl was part of that group. As the band started playing the crowd began becoming more constricted, and she happened to be right behind me, I could feel the front of her body against my back as we danced to the music. It's not like this really meant anything, for the same thing happened with other guys and girls when other bands played, you have to expect that going to a concert like this. I guess since I talked to her beforehand I felt something more. I had asked her to text a friend of mine for me because I didn't have service on my phone, and I got her number from that friend later. Today I sent her a text message and have a feeling she will never respond. It's strange, being excited to make a new friend knowing she probably doesn't give two shits about staying in contact with me.

Thanks for reading my rant.
Over and out,
-Jared

Well I won two VIP tickets to Epicenter Festival 09. I'm so excited, it's this Saturday. Tool, Alice in Chains, and Linkin Park are heading the event. Bands like Hollywood undead, Atreyu, Wolfmother and others will be there too.

I'll take pictures and put them up the next day.

Well, that's all for now, stay imaginative
-Jared

Sorry guys, I suck at blogging, my attention deficit disorder has just gotten out of hand and I need to get it taken care of it.

So my friend Ant had been home on leave from the Navy for a few weeks. We went to Venice beach and I got to lay in the sand listening to the waves under the stars. That's really one of the only times I ever feel truly relaxed. Sorry, no pix, I'll take pix next time I go. Well he went back to work and I'm trying to get a job.

Snow in palmdale

It snowed in Palmdale, it was the most snow i have ever seen in my life.

EDIT: Okay, so this was a week before Christmas, but the pictures were on my phone and I wanted to see if I could actually post a blog from my cell phone and it worked!

quick update

I know, I'm not doing too well updating my blog, but here's a quick update.

There's really not much to talk about, since I'm not doing anything right now. Next week I'll be going to Santa Barbara with my dad for a business trip. I’ll even have pictures for you on that one. Maybe I’ll travel a lot some day and make a travel blog. That would be cool. For now I’m stuck doing nothing, so I’ll have to find other things to write about.

Well, over and out,
-Jared

Quick Update

It’s been three months since my last blog entry. Lazy I know, but I’ll get better. This will be just a quick update.

The other day, I’m not sure why, but all of a sudden I wanted a camera, so my dad gave me his Canon EOS Rebel G. I just need to buy some batteries for it, and soon I will have pictures in my blogs.

My school semester is almost over, one more day and I’m free for the winter. I’m all signed up for my spring classes. I’m only taking three, but that’s a good amount for me. Let’s see, I’m taking English 101, Philosophy 101, and Creative writing. Next fall I’ll be taking English 102, Philosophy 201, Journalism and photography.

Well, that’s it for now.

Where to Head?

As I awoke this morning, I was angry how late I had gone to bed the night before. I was having trouble waking up. I had to leave for the bus by 8:30, and it was all ready 8:10. So I decided to skip class today, it’s not that big of a deal, my teacher isn’t going to be there any way. Just as long I don’t miss any more classes, I’ll be fine. So here I am, late for the bus, and writing in my blog.

So, what is my blog going to be about? I’ve just started it yesterday, so I don’t know where I’m going quite yet. I would like to talk about everything. Some politics, some philosophy, maybe even useless facts that I know; but I should try to write about one specific subject, or at least target one specific audience. I would like to target people not unlike myself.

I am a free thinker, a skeptic, a Bright. Many of you would prefer to call me an atheist; although that does not explain my views. Atheist just means no God. I have a naturalistic worldview, free of supernatural and mystical elements. Just because I don’t believe in all that doesn’t mean I don’t like it. I love to write about the supernatural. It is my favorite subject.

I am a huge music fan; I have a spiritual connection to it. I like mostly Rock&Roll, the classics are great, but modern is cool to. I also listen to Jazz, classical and well just about everything else. Music is one of the great ways to express yourself, and have other’s feel how you feel.

I am a libertarian, which means I am not a republican, or a democrat. I sit in the middle, sometimes I swing to the far right field, and sometimes I swing to the far left field. I do think this country is in need of a great change. I don’t know if Obama will do that for us, but I’m hoping so.

I am the holder of too much useless knowledge, I don’t know why. I just know that clove cigarettes were originally for women, I know that Jim Morrison was born a year after Jimmy Hendrix, and that he died a year after Jimmy; and much more useless facts.

I’m going to start some other blogs too, there going to be fictional blogs. I’ll tell the story through the eyes of my main character.

Well, what else is there about me? I guess I’ll tell more as we go through these blogs. I hope I can catch your attention.